rock bottom?

In these moments:

In these moments I wonder

Where it could have all been

What would have happened if…

That’s a deep well, I know,

But the void is calling me…

In these moments I whisper

Lord, where have you been

Lord, is there an outcome

Could you hurry and let it be

The void is absurd, but the void is better

Than the bottom where I have been lingering

Insipid and flattened

Too many burdens crushing my will

No more senses to sustain any transformation

This is where I don’t want to be

I am no phoenix, turn off the fire

I can’t discern the singing from the screams

Every hand that is extended

Disappears as instantly as it appeared

I can’t appreciate that humor

And I won’t even if I get out of here…

There’s a darker place in the making

And I am terrified of what will happen

In these moments of fear