Fading Moments

Fading Moments.

So goodbye 2023,

you have not been a good year.

but your impact will fade away, I'll make sure of it.

I kept fighting till the last minute, hoping to get good things out of you

you managed to make the triumphs seem futile

you managed to expose humanity in the worst kind of ways

and you made sure all my efforts went down the drain.

but I will get the last laugh

I promise...

oh and here's a song I will use to exorcise you, or at least parts of you...

Scents and moments:

 

Picked up scents

On my hands and arms

A moment of reminiscence 

Two moments apart

Have I invented your sigh

Did I forget your abruptness

Or am I too fraught in despair

To be half imagining

 

Picked up scents

On my pillows and sheets

Your lips linger in my mind

Far longer than your face

A breath taken away

Is nothing too dramatic

When a moment away

Awaits a disappointment

 

Picked up scents

On my scarf and sweater

Whose tears are these

I cannot remember

I read your name

Turn off the screen

And scream for a moment

Crafting no impressions

 

I miss your chest

Your hair on my face

I miss your scents

And the promises we made

I miss your voice

Resonating my name

I miss our moments

But I'm glad they’re fading away…

 

 

Revert Back

I was having a conversation today with a friend, and self love came up...

Is it self love or narcissism?

Where's the line that separates the two?

But my mind drifted elsewhere... to times when I should have chosen myself but didn't because of set ideas in my head... because of fear maybe?

Sometimes it feels like a contradiction, an endless fight, between, oh the cliché, my mind and my heart...

I wish I didn't have to have this fight, I wish things would just happen smoothly, but till then, yes I learned to choose myself, in the best possible way...

Revert Back:

 

I’ve said goodbye so many times

Kept my tears stuck at the corners of my eyes

What could have been and wasn’t

Had me dreaming

Had me wrecked

Had me losing myself

 

Walked down streets holding no one’s hand

Watching happy duos sharing their lives

What should have been and wasn’t

Had me hoping

Had me shattered

Had me losing myself

 

I’ve danced with quite a few partners

Took the lead, offered it back, out of sync

What could have I done then

Had me thinking

Had me faded

Had me losing myself

 

Revert back, start back again

Have me solider, bring me closer

Revert back, bloom blast and blister

Didn’t see the light at the end

But I felt the burn

 

I’ve dived deep in different waters

Happy to have made it back every time

What should have I done then

Had me laughing

Had me bruised

But I’ll find myself

 

Revert back, start back again

Have me solider, bring me closer

Revert further, fly far and flutter 

Get to the light at that end

If I touch it, will I burn?

 

I’ll swim alone, I’ll dance alone,

I’ll walk alone, I’ll cry alone

And I’ll chase every sunrise

Till I find my own…