so I was trying a bit of neurogaphic drawing:
it reminded me of something I wrote while having another insomnia bout...
I have been suffering from insomnia since I was 8 I think... I remember I used to get frustrated so much , would ask mom to sleep next to me then ask her every 5mn if she was still awake...
and as I got older nothing worked... I tried everything , suggestions, things I read about... nothing works when the brain says no; when the brains wants to go to every tiny itsy bitsy detail of anything and go round and round... whoohoo
the only thing that bothers me about it now is that I will definitely be tired the following day, and that ain't fun...this is where meditation can come in handy, helping me relax a bit...
oh and realised it's seasonal... mostly happens in October/November and may/June...
anyway,
here goes...
Make It Manifest:
Garbage truck beeping for what seems like hours now
What else will I blame my insomnia on
There are wolves in the field, the sheep are hiding
It’s a funny thing when
Crying in not gonna go down
Any well, any hole, any scream score.
You gotta want it, and you gotta ask for it
Make it manifest
Like the lights in my eyes that aren’t even blinking
What else will I blame my insomnia on
There are needs and desires and so many feels
It’s a tragedy when
There isn’t an object of
Affection, love, abundant connection
You gotta find it, no you gotta let go and let it happen
Make it manifest
Like the fire within, undulating with my vitality
What else will I blame my insomnia on
There are ways I could use this, seems so damn easy
It’s a total waste when
Sustenance is depleting
Any energy, any inspiration, any ray of hope left
You gotta try harder, no you gotta aim better
Make it manifest
Make it manifest
